it's an addiction, slow to create
but too quick to satiate and i know.
i know it's the here and now
but you don't know what you're missing
because all you can see is immediate.
it's immediate, that numbness that explodes
all at once, unable to tell if it is worth it.
is it worth it? that deep breath tonight
becomes a short gasp in the morning
that you can't take back. that cool rush
becomes a slow burn and it's not like before.
like before when the solution was a deep breath
and a cool rush and that slow burn never came.